Embrace

Do you take the noose
and wrap it around my neck
as soon as I began to embrace life?

Inside is a dark star
You need to make it glow bright
break past its mirrors
because the image it reflects is not me

Awake me
Before I can rest
to resists the creatures howl
The demon I named Mr. McGee

Is it now that you embrace me?
blend my shadows
and make the star shine

Take what I love
and you become my reflection
but bodies are never meant to be the same

A lot of thoughts

I had one of those moments, where I miss the world.

I began thinking and over thinking of people in my life that I miss, a summer that I wish to come back, not even just one summer, almost all of them. Even love’s long ago.

And I thought about this because of the world I am in, it is changing constantly, to better areas (job promotion, moving out with close buddies, college) and I am scared on what is going to happen from here forward. Though everything is for the better I cannot stop myself from thinking “what now?”.

I miss the ignorance of my childhood, I miss the promising memories. I also miss not worrying about any drama or issues with anyone. Then again maybe that’s just me?

Probably even so, I get so worried and it feels so akward being around people that I’ve had huge issues with from the past.

Seriously, I am thinking too much.

New Sites

I’m currently working on getting some new domains and what they’ll be used for. I was thinking mostly of random reviews ect. So hopefully we’ll so those soon. These sites will mostly be for fun. So I don’t expect a hell of a lot of people going there, just something to write about and give your opinion on…that no one asked for… haha.

My Grandpa Houston

Rest in Peace grandpa, you will be forever missed

May all the angels guide to heaven.

You are my hero and in my memories are still alive.

You will be forever loved.

Poppa

Disneyland

I can’t afford this right now

I can’t afford to feel suffering, not now. Not ever. I have to remain strong…for myself..

“Think I’ve lost” poem

I think I’ve lost
I’ve fell, I’m fallen
The oblivious to the reflection
the mirrors not trusting my creation
This oblivion alone in white
and the line with shades of grey
Grow thinner by the hourly day
Midnight come soon
and bring your feathery birds
Clip the wings of stars
and I’ll watch them shoot across my skies
Lost and alone inside these growing tides
Give me a gift to give the gifters
Lift spirits of their lives
and spike your smile like piercing needle
Leaving me alone rocking on the floor
Like I’m still stuck in the cradle
A gift gone so far above my life
a gift gone so far above our light
Torch bearers and dancing divers
Glowing knives and sweet sympathy
With out all the sympathetic
And all the symmetry.

Taste of Huntington

Went down to Huntington Beach today with Cassie with VIP tickets to Taste of Huntington. It was quite amazing, it’s basically a giant free buffet to test out the local companies. From food & cakes to beer & wine, It’s fantastic.

Because of this I have like 5 new bottle openers on my keychain and a lot of free meals coming my way from all the stuff they passed out.

We got there from 11 30 stuck around till about 1:30 and booked it out of there. Since today was/is such a beautiful day we decide to head over to the swap meet in Costa Mesa. Theres a barn next to it which is open up to the public. It was nice to be amongst live stock and fresh fruit. Felt comfortable because during this nothing in the world matter, none of the earths problem, all that I cared around me was Cassie and I. Checked out the swap meet none the less which is always great.

Anyways, times are changing and I’m hopefully getting a raise. Well I am but I dont know how great. Enough for me to be in school and living on my own. Speaking of which I am moving out soon into either Costa Mesa, Hunginton Beach, Irvine, or Tustin. It all depends really. But just trying to have some fun while I am at it. I don’t know if ‘growing up’ finally or I just really am done with most peoples bullshit.

My past happened and I meet people that may or may not affected my life but I am glad they where there. Apart of it. I’ve became a better person inside for it, at least that’s how I feel. The past is never dead, not to me at least. You’re still effected by it and you still think of it. It’s just that it happened and what hurts move on and be thankful your stronger now cause of it.

So long for now.

-Spooky McGee

Woo Fender Amp Head

finally got the amp head for my marshell amp, its a fender 100fm, at least I believe it’s called that, crisp smooth sound.

On the other note my friend Amanda and I, have been having a lot of talk on spirituality and religion and it’s one of the few people where I can have this talk.

So I’ve been just goofing around lately with my job and waiting for next month to register for classes, hoping to have band practice sometime soon too.

One month with out soda!

It went quite well! I decided to try and go a month without soda, from 2-23-10 to 3-23-10 just to prove to myself that I can challenge myself and put my self through anything with out giving up.

It was hard because I really enjoy soda, it’s tasty and delicious and I might have a slight addiction to the caffeine part but meh, whatcha gonna do?

I didn’t quite kick sodas to the curve but I noticed I lost quite a bit of weight since then, then also having a gym membership with your girlfriend helps.

Also got a new Ibanez guitar from my bands drummer Tim. It’s not the greatest but damn it can use the working. I’m saving up for a fender amp head to go with my marshell 4×12 120w cab. The fender is roughly 200 and is getting high praises on reviews. So I’m looking forward to it. Up next is paying of debt (continuing…) and getting an extra guitar. I hope it all goes well.

The band naming part is kind of a pain though, still trying to figure that and there is roughly 5 of us and by roughly we have a fill-in-guitarist on rythm whose a good buddy of ours and if it all works out I think we should keep him!

Take care!

-Spooky D. McGee